Sick!

When you hear of a woman getting pregnant you know that “morning sickness” is just part of life, however there’s no way to really know what women go through until you experience it yourself. The first part of my sick time I did not enjoy, I felt gross all the time and evenings seemed to be worse for whatever reason. Each week seemed to be a little worse than the last, escalating to more than I thought I was ready to handle the week before. But there are two areas in which the Lord has blessed me greatly! The first one is His amazing grace, I’m not referring to His saving grace (although I am ever thankful for that) I’m referring to his daily, hourly, minutely grace that he gives just at the time that it is needed. God told Paul after he begged Him to remove a painful situation, “My grace is sufficient for you” It’s enough! I have seen that so clearly these past few weeks. There have been weak times where in my sin I beg God “I’ve had as much as I can take, please let me feel better!” Only to be humbled when I feel nothing but worse and yet he gives me the grace to endure and to rejoice at the same time.
The other way that the Lord has blessed me during this time is in the husband that He gave me. Brian is constantly caring for me, getting me whatever I need, reminding me of God’s grace, praying for me, making me whatever food I feel like I can eat, holding my hair back as I “bow before the porcelain goddess” (as he puts it). In his treatment too I am greatly humbled, it doesn’t seem like the most enjoyable way to spend many evenings, with a sick wife who only wants to lay still or sleep. But he does it, willingly, patiently and lovingly day after day. I praise God for him!
And so, though I have not had it easy, I do not wish that these past weeks had not been the way the Lord has ordained them to be. I have learned so much and can now pray for other pregnant women in a way that was not possible before.
I still look forward to the day when i will once again feel good and have some energy, but I also thank God for this sick time and for all that He has taught me!