Is the Lord still directing our steps?

Many of you know by now of the "troubles" Brian has had with finding a new job. Although we know the Lord does not see them as troubles I must confess it's been hard for me at times to trust Him in this. Brian has been an amazing example to me of just resting and waiting on our all-wise God. Passages like "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God" have often been a conviction.
Several times now, hopeful job opportunities have come and gone and I'm always ashamed at how easily I doubt and have to resist the urge to wish that I could just control this myself.

The Lord has given me a healthy, trial free pregnancy which has allowed me to continue working through this time, a fact that we have been most thankful for. But, as the weeks have flown by and the time draws ever closer for me to have to quit work a battle goes on in my thoughts and desires. The desire to be done working and focus on my husband, home and baby is so strong, and yet the fear that comes when I think about what we’ll do if I have to quit working and Brian still doesn’t have a job is just as strong. Obviously this is sin and the Lord is so patient to forgive me and so good to constantly remind me of my responsibility to trust Him, He does this through Scripture, through Brian, and through the writings of others. But still, my mind almost constantly rings with this question; “What does the Lord have planned for us!!?” I really do believe, and take comfort in the fact that “before time began, God had a plan” He’s not still figuring out what He’s going to do, it’s done. He just hasn’t revealed it to us yet.

Thankfully my husband also, is so patient with his pregnant, sometimes emotional wife as I fight this battle. There’s hardly a day that goes by that he won’t ask me if I’m trusting, remind me to trust, share a passage of scripture that applies, or just hold me again as I cry, be it sinful tears of worry or repentant tears.

On Sunday the choir sang this song:

"We Walk by Faith"

Chorus: We walk by faith and not by sight,
we trust in God and not in might.
For in our darkness He is light.
We walk by faith and not by sight.

Sometimes trials come our way.
We don't know what to do or say.
But we know God will make a way
if we will trust, trust and obey. (Chorus)

We trust in God and in His Son.
What God has promised will be done.
And as each journey is begun
His Holy Spirit makes us one. (Chorus)

We may not fully understand,
but we are guided by His hand.
And as we follow faith's command,
God leads us to the Promised Land. (Chorus)

As I listened to them sing and followed along with the words in the Grace Today tears filled my eyes. This song was another beautiful reminder of God’s power and control in our lives and our responsibility to trust His guiding hand though “we may not fully understand”. As I silently thanked the Lord for the unexpected reminder my husband caught sight of my tears, he immediately deduced the reason for them and as usual his shoulder was ever ready soak up any tears that my hands didn't wisk away. Oh how thankful I am for Brian Casebolt!

Even in the midst of all of this, I look at the way the Lord is using it to grow Brian and me and I give thanks to Him. From the big hard task of learning to trust Him to more mundane things like learning to be more strict and tight with our budget, God is indeed teaching us much, I look forward to the time when we can look back on this and see so many other ways that He has grown us and I pray that in all this God will be glorified!

I titled this blog with a question, and the answer is a resounding YES!! The road that our Sovreign Shepherd is directing our steps on right now is a bit on the bumpy side but we press on, ever thankful for the prayers of so many loving friends and family surrounding us. He is always in control of the tomorrows and we can't wait to see what He's going to do as we wait on Him to reveal His perfect plan!!