Another lesson on Gods Sovereignty

A couple weeks ago we had a "scare". I started bleeding and cramping. I'm so very thankful it was in the evening when Brian was home! I immediately thought I was miscarrying. Thankfully, by Gods grace, I didn't panic. But as we called the off hours number and waited for the Dr.s call I did a lot of praying. "Lord, are you really gonna ask me to give up another baby?....If that's what your will is I know that you'll uphold me... please Father, how will we explain this to Chloe, she's so excited... but I know that you can heal even her little heart...how can I want my baby on this sinful earth, when you might be taking it to heaven?...Please comfort my husband Father... Though I was praying to our great God, I was also operating under the assumption that I must be losing this baby. Was that faithless on my part? I don't know. I know that at one point the words to a song we often sing came to mind "you give and take away, you give and take away..." twice the song says that and I was facing the possibility that for a 2nd time I would be asked to give my baby into heavenly arms. Could my heart heart still "choose to say, blessed be your name"? As we drove to the hospital, Brian played a Steven Curtis Chapman song that echoed the cry of my heart:

I am broken, I am bleeding,
I'm scared and I'm confused,
but You are faithful.
Yes You are faithful.
I am weary, unbelieving.
God please help my unbelief!
Cuz You are faithful.
Yes You are faithful.

I will proclaim it to the world.
I will declare it to my heart
And sing it when the sun is shining.
I will scream it in the dark.

You are faithful!
You are faithful!
When you give and when You take away,
even then still Your name
is faithful!
You are faithful!
And with everything inside of me,
I am choosing to believe
You are faithful.

 In God's perfect sovereignty He decided that our baby would stay here on this earth for the time being and we are so very thankful! We are also thankful for the encouragement and prayers from so many family and friends!